United by Prozac...

Oh dear, it's been really long time since I last came with a fresh 'Living with Depression' chapter. After Chapter 3 I decided to take some time off from writing a new one, in order to transfer almost all information and thoughts that I published here to Instagram (still so happy of all the feedback you, guys, gave me) and also to find out what are other topics I would love to share with you in terms of my life with depression... at the end of the day, I don't want to end up repeating the same stuff over and over again or make it all too mainstream, if you know what I mean... Yes, I know this 'time off' thing turned into 3 months sort of vacation.


But I feel like I'm back with something interesting, and something we sure haven't discussed yet. So the other week I happened to watch the Prozac Nation movie. The thing is, I try to watch movies about  this or that mental disorder (now at this point I think I have to promise to come up with a list of my favorite ones) from time to time. In fact I postponed watching the Prozac Nation a number of times, but last week my psychiatrist changed my Zoloft for Prozac analogue. So I thought it's a perfect time for the movie. There was one problem that Christina Ricci's character tend to outline regarding her depression - writing.


'I need to write. I've always been writing something' - a girl tells to her therapist. That moment really got me, because I week before I was discussing this exact topic with my therapist. I've been having problems with writing my usual proper monologues for almost 2 years now. And if about a year ago I didn't care about it that much because I was deep drowning in depression, it turned into serious worry few months ago when I realized I'm finally feeling way better. I still could find it hard to concentrate on my own thoughts and I felt dissatisfied with my stories. One would question, why I consider it to be such a problem?


Because it's my voice. My true voice. I'm one of those people who find it hard to speak out... while I find it way easier to write everything down. And just like Ricci's character, I've always been writing. Back in school days I used to poetize. There was one classmate with whom I shared my passion and she actually said I had a good style. But as we all know, I ended up writing super long articles. So yes, I've been writing for years and I know I'm good at it. And I like the fact I had a chance to talk this problem though with my mental guru. She gave me the best, and well simplest, advice ever - just sit down and write, shut the door, turn off everything and just write.


And, yes, another good advice was to write everything down - own thoughts, quotes, phases from books and movies. So here I am, sitting in front of my laptop after watching the Prozac Nation. I feel like the movie gave me one of those necessary kicks. Much needed ones. There are few other thoughts that I like in Prozac Nation, like 'If I was normal, I would have had less problems', 'It's that moment when you realize people don't understand you', 'I see life in black color', 'Tablets gave me a rest'... I think I could spend another few hours discussing these quotes, but it would be too much for one story. If you have your own story o experience regarding this topic, then please, feel free to share it...  




United by Prozac...

Oh dear, it's been really long time since I last came with a fresh 'Living with Depression' chapter. After Chapter 3 I decided to take some time off from writing a new one, in order to transfer almost all information and thoughts that I published here to Instagram (still so happy of all the feedback you, guys, gave me) and also to find out what are other topics I would love to share with you in terms of my life with depression... at the end of the day, I don't want to end up repeating the same stuff over and over again or make it all too mainstream, if you know what I mean... Yes, I know this 'time off' thing turned into 3 months sort of vacation.


But I feel like I'm back with something interesting, and something we sure haven't discussed yet. So the other week I happened to watch the Prozac Nation movie. The thing is, I try to watch movies about  this or that mental disorder (now at this point I think I have to promise to come up with a list of my favorite ones) from time to time. In fact I postponed watching the Prozac Nation a number of times, but last week my psychiatrist changed my Zoloft for Prozac analogue. So I thought it's a perfect time for the movie. There was one problem that Christina Ricci's character tend to outline regarding her depression - writing.


'I need to write. I've always been writing something' - a girl tells to her therapist. That moment really got me, because I week before I was discussing this exact topic with my therapist. I've been having problems with writing my usual proper monologues for almost 2 years now. And if about a year ago I didn't care about it that much because I was deep drowning in depression, it turned into serious worry few months ago when I realized I'm finally feeling way better. I still could find it hard to concentrate on my own thoughts and I felt dissatisfied with my stories. One would question, why I consider it to be such a problem?


Because it's my voice. My true voice. I'm one of those people who find it hard to speak out... while I find it way easier to write everything down. And just like Ricci's character, I've always been writing. Back in school days I used to poetize. There was one classmate with whom I shared my passion and she actually said I had a good style. But as we all know, I ended up writing super long articles. So yes, I've been writing for years and I know I'm good at it. And I like the fact I had a chance to talk this problem though with my mental guru. She gave me the best, and well simplest, advice ever - just sit down and write, shut the door, turn off everything and just write.


And, yes, another good advice was to write everything down - own thoughts, quotes, phases from books and movies. So here I am, sitting in front of my laptop after watching the Prozac Nation. I feel like the movie gave me one of those necessary kicks. Much needed ones. There are few other thoughts that I like in Prozac Nation, like 'If I was normal, I would have had less problems', 'It's that moment when you realize people don't understand you', 'I see life in black color', 'Tablets gave me a rest'... I think I could spend another few hours discussing these quotes, but it would be too much for one story. If you have your own story o experience regarding this topic, then please, feel free to share it...  



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